My Fitness

Thursday, August 2, 2018

pencil dream

Last night (I wrote this on July 19) I laid my head on my pillow and immediately fell asleep. That by itself is bizarre for me. That never happens. And I immediately had a dream. It was just one image: a giant pencil asleep in my bed. I was the pencil. I was so startled that I had fallen asleep so quickly that it actually jolted me right back awake.

The image of the pencil stayed.
it was a dream. don't judge.
I know I can't draw ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I started thinking about how a giant pencil would walk and talk if we were in a cartoon. How do pencil's move? Maybe mine would fly since it doesn't have legs. This pencil would have to have someone else do the movement for her ("her" since it was me, remember?).

And then it struck me: This pencil can desire whatever it wants but it can only be moved by God.
Proverbs 16:9 The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.

The pencil will be worn down when used. As the led or graphite is used, the pencil gets smaller.
John 3:30 He must increase, but I must decrease.

It would be silly to think that the Pencil did anything. Only the One holding the pencil should get the praise.
Matthew 5:16 they may see your good works and give glory to your father who is in heaven

And when the graphite runs raw and needs to be put through a pencil sharpener, it will cut away what is useless and sharpen the pencil.
1 Peter 1:6-7 In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials so that the tested genuineness of your faith - more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire - may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ.

So the Pencil can't even get out of bed without the Writer deciding to use her. Anything the Pencil does that is of any use is because the Writer decided to write something. And when the Pencil stops being effective, the Writer will need to sharpen her and cut away the protective covering to get to the inner usefulness, which is the Holy Spirit.
Ezekiel 36:27 And I will put my Spirit within you...

This dream and realization and meditation on Scripture was good for me. Recently I've been rather discouraged. But this dream encouraged me to remember that life isn't about the Pencil. It's about the Author. So maybe people hate the pencil. But that's silly because the Pencil isn't doing anything and can't do anything on her own. When people hate and lie about the Pencil, they're really hating and lying about God.

And that's none of my business.