My Fitness

Wednesday, September 20, 2017

slip of paper (meditating on scripture)

This slip of paper represents much of my trials going through labor with Lucas. The back wasn't filled out much because labor picked up and I was no longer able to write.

Everyone has their trick for getting through labor. Some use drugs. Some use a special verse they picked out weeks in advance. Some meditate and use incense.

I had several verses and I wrote them down here. I chose none in advance and only wrote each verse down as they came to me in my discussion with God last Thursday.

The main one that I shared last week is at the top of the page: The Lord goes before me and the God of Israel is my rear guard. (Isaiah 52:12)

My next verse was soothing to meditate on whenever I got scared about dying or about the baby dying. It says that no matter what happens, everything will turn out ok: All things work together for the good of those who love the Lord and are called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28)

The next verse is an adaptation of the fruit of the Spirit. Who else better embodies the fruit of the Spirit than the Spirit himself? I needed to remember that God cares for me and about me. He isn't a Norse god waiting to "get" me or a Greek god trying trick me:
God loves me
is joyful for me
gives peace to me [and is at peace with me through the blood of Christ]
is patient with me
is kind to me
is good to me
is faithful toward me
is gentle with me
has self-control toward me [he isn't going to suddenly be unjust for no reason] (Galatians 5:22-23)
My next verse is not from the Bible but more a lesson from several verses like Ecclesiastes 3:1: Trust in God includes trust in his timing.

This next verse is also not in the Bible but a practical application of many verses include Psalm 23 which immediately follows it: Don't doubt in the dark what God said in the light.
The Lord is my shepherd I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters. He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I will fear no evil for you are with me, your rod and your staff they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil. My cup overflows. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord forever. 
Next is only the symbol #27 referring to Psalm 27:
The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid? When evildoers assail me to eat up my flesh, my adversaries and foes, it is they who stumble and fall. Though an army encamp against me, my heart shall not fear; though war arise against me, yet I will be confident. One thing I have asked of the Lord that will I seek after: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gave upon the beauty of the Lord and to inquire in his temple. For he will hide me in his shelter in the day of trouble; he will conceal me under the cover of his tent; he will life me high upon a rock. And now my head shall be lifted up above my enemies all around me, and I will offer in his tent sacrifices with shouts of joy; I will sing and make melody to the Lord. Hear, O Lord, when I cry aloud; be gracious to me and answer me! You have said, "Seek my face." My heart says to you, "Your face, Lord, do I seek." Hide not your face from me. Turn not your servant away in anger, O you who have been my help. Cast me not off; forsake me not, O God of my salvation! For my father and my mother have forsaken me, but the Lord will take me in. Teach me your way, O Lord, and lead me on a level path because of my enemies. Give me not up to the will of my adversaries; for false witnesses have risen against me, and they breathe out violence. I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living! Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!
And even after I was reminded to wait upon the Lord I would still get angry that things weren't going as well as I wanted. And pointedly the Spirit rebuked me (and I repented) saying, "The anger of man does not produce the righteousness of God." (James 1:20)

Alright then. Well, I remembered all these things and the Spirit closed the conversation with, "How much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask him!" (Matthew 7:11)

And with that, I amazed to say, the baby was born. And he is a good gift.


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